Mirror Reflection

I look in the mirror I hate what I see
There's a shadow hanging over me
I don't like what I've become
I need to change the beat of my lifes drums
I look in the mirror I hate what I see
This is not the person I used to be
There's lot to be dealt with under the surface
Yet I act like my life is full of purpose
Darkness surrounds me, my behavior digusts me
There's a shadow hanging over me
I look in the mirror I hate what I see
Why is there damage to she that was so confident?
That even ghosts can rattle her bones is now so eminent
Where is the carefree soul that was so loving
Why, even she has deserted me
I look in the mirror I hate what I see
I see a different person staring back at me
An opportunity I have to love
Yet I seem to brood over my insecurities
These seem to overcrowd my thoughts
Leaving me feeling oh so alone & lost
I look in the mirror I hate what I see
There's a shadow hanging over me
There's a bridge I have to cross
But I wonder if my strength will last
I know the lining will be silver
so why then does my spine quiver?
I know where the road should lead
I worry whether my heart will stay happy or will it bleed?
Will I ever be the same again?
Or will this pain just never end?
Patience for my trials have I, but I am weary
It seems to much of an effort to remain cheery!
I can see the end of the rainbow
All I have to do is cross over.
Though it looks like quite a distance
It will be worth it for the happiness won't be just for an instance.
I look in the mirror I hate what I see
There's a shadow hanging over me
I look to the stars and I wonder is it just me?
Or do they hand out such cards to all for free?
But then again, maybe it just my destiny!
Who am I? What have I become?
I need to change the beats of my lifes drums
For this is not the person I want to be.
Work I will, till there's no shadow hanging over me
So when I look in the mirror I'll no longer hate what I see!!