Shattered Dreams & Wounded Hearts

I made her a promise to stand by you
even though she warned me initally good times would be few
Now she's gone and I have no where to turn
All the while the pain in my torn heart seems to burn
Ur actions say u care but in ur words say u dont know anymore how to feel
every single word i hear is like a sliver of glass jabbing through my ordeal
I thought i was strong and no more would i go wrong
and then one day u came along
I thought i was through with being ripped open
for everyone i loved was always from me taken
I had promised myself never again would i open myself to this pain i felt
but only with a look u seemed to have the power to make this vow melt
I had barriers so high, scaling them would've detered another
but for u, without even tryin they simply ceased to exist altogether
A touch of joy, a ray of sunshine, a fountain of glory, all seemed too less
to describe what we had and felt together - a world without stress
Then like a dream i simply watched as i saw it shatter
as if it were only made of glass and not of matter
I tired to hold on but it seemed in vain
u had completely shut me out of ur grief and pain
I struggle with myself as i wonder what to do
but try as i might i seem to have absolutely no clue
I wanna stay but i dont wanna force u to have me
so im waitin for u to accept me of a will thats free
but its the interim that is more painful than death
i hurt so much i cant even take a breath
scared of losing all am I, i wanna cry
yet i know its only time before im dealt a hand that says hi or bye
so till then shall i wait or maybe even break
with a tiny hope all the broken pieces can be put back together in love's wake.