N U Say

n u ask wat do I have to b insecure abt?

how do I make u c its d small things that make a big difference.

n u say I dnt understand ur friendships but do u really give me that chance?

n u think I dnt trust u!

how can u say that wen my very life is in ur hands?

how can I make u c its d small things that make my life worth living?

its not dat I dnt trust u, coz I do!

its not dat I dnt respect ur privacy, coz I do by givin u ur space.

its not dat I doubt all ur frendships, coz I dnt, I actually like most of ur frends.

Im just envious of ur relationship w others coz uve turned cold to me n i dnt understand how u can still say u care n yet not seem to share.

I miss d kindness u used to show me n ive bcome selfish n jealous n petty im sorry but its simply bcoz from u there ain't no more love n care.

Ive promised to wait but how do i make u c its breakin my heart yet ive set u free.

n i miss  frends we used to b coz u used to show me love back then

now it feels like ur emotions are all spent!

n u say u need time but u dnt how long!

through this punishment i smile n try to b strong.

n u say ur bein fair coz ur just trying to avoid making a mistake

n u say im not nor have ever been a mistake

ain't both statements contradictory?

coz if i wasn't a mistake then y do u need time to decide?

n u ask y am i so insecure?

tell me wat security do i have wen u find it difficult to even acknowledge me in ur life

n u say ur frends know - but then y cant u publicly say im ur girl?
n u say u just wanna b true to urself before commiting to me
oh but y cnt u c its d small things dat make a big difference.
I ain't gonna hold it against u ever if u say im ur girl
but if only u cud c how proud i am of u n how happy id b if u said i was urs.
Im tired of fighting, n pleading n seeming untrusting
Im so blue i dnt know wat to do
n wit everything u say u cut me open
I just keep bleeding but my heart still aches only for u
If only i cud make u c how much u mean to me.

oh y cnt u c how good we r, y is it so difficult for u to believe it so?

Im so crippled by this pain i cnt think i dnt know wat to do.
how do i make u c its d small things that will set u free
n i just pray that by the time u decide it wnt b too late for us
coz this is draining me completely n i wanna shut away the pieces of my broken heart

but still i wait;

for only ur love can heal these scars
for now im all alone n u r d one i love n i treasure ur love n dnt ever wanna lose it
n id go thru the fires of hell to prove it
n i believe in magic n i believe in r love n dat r dreamz will someday come true..

n that someday u will say u love me too..